Good Improvement^^

Yes, finally...

today...i finally manage to control my behaviour in front of **...

normally when i see her, i will act abnormally, i will not be myself, i will not have the braveness to speak, even to walk also barely able to....

but today, a miracle happened, i manage to control myself from being other part of me...

i don't know what had give me this braveness, but i sure will appreciate it....

Yes, finally i can be a normal person again, i will not be nervous whenever i see her again...

Yeah!!!

The Final Decision~

After taking forever and a day time thinking, finally i had make my decision about applying for another school...

I had decided to let down my parents because i like my current school better although i know the other school is better...

The only way to do this is to stop studying, i mean revision...

By this way, my result will be bad and my request will not be accepted....

So, starting from now on, i will stop doing any revision, i will spent my free time to play games, listen to music and sleeping...

haiz...finally i can be relax...

dont have to think about anything again....

Yeah!!!!!!

Sad And Happy At The Same Time...

Just after a few minute i wake up from my good night sleep, my parents walked into my room with a wide smile in their face...

i was very curious and asked them the reason why they are very happy...

i was very shocked when my parents told me that they want me to change my school, they said that there is a better school for me somewhere else which i do not know the place...

they were asking for my trial exam result for them to attach with the request form to request for another school that my parents think that suit me best....

i don't want them to be sad, so i just agreed with them, but at the same time, i also feel sad to leave my school if my request is approved...

the only way not to change school is to get bad result, if my result is bad, my request will not be accepted and i will not have to change my school...

but how am i gonna get bad result???

the only way now is just to see the teacher and ask them to deduct my mark so that my result will be bad....

haizz....

what a hard decision i had to make, if i ask the teacher to give me bad result, i will disappoint my parents, but if i get good result and my request is approved, i will be very sad because i might not able to see the school again and more important, the people in that school....

why i had to make so much decision in my life????

why cant i just live a happy and relaxing life without having so much hard time???????

i'm gonna kill myself~

Today is the worst day in this whole week...( i guess so)

9.9.09- finally some of the subject result will be out, i arrive at school with butterfly in my stomach...

the first teacher to go into the class is the English teacher, i was very nervous because of my essay writing, i had make a mistake when writing the literature question, i thought i will get very low mark due to that mistake, but fortunately, that teacher still haven't mark it yet... haiz....

after English period is Chinese lesson, i was very frightened because Chinese subject is one of my weakest subject. As what i had predict, my result for the objective paper was very disappointed....

my wishes to get as many "A"s as possible had been ruined, today i don't even get an "A" subject, not even one....

i feel like killing somebody, but luckily i could control my emotion, by playing games, i had been online since evening playing online games, luckily my laptop is still fine, i thought it will spoil just like my dream...

In the long run, i decided not to do any revision already, i decided to play online games everyday and not concern about my study... Yeah!!!

hate exam, love games....


Created By: ƧΉΛDӨЩ ΚПIGΉƬ
from the "hate exam, love freedom international society"

Getting nervous~

today will be a trial exam...

But i still did not ready to face it...

my body is trembling like a leaf, my hand sweating, my brain is blank and my eye has been like a panda...

i just read 1 subject but tomorrow gonna be 2 subject in the exam, i'm getting nervous by now, planning not to sleep tonight, stay awake for the whole night not for study, but for playing games to release my pressure...

i think my result this exam will be very disappointing than before because i didnt ready at all, not even a bit...

i just rely on what i had read before 1B exam and what i had listen when teacher are explaining...

i think this exam gonna be the toughest exam in this whole month...(not whole life)

haiz....